Confession: I’m such a huge worrywart.
Today was really slow and when it’s slow, I tend to start dwelling on things and zeroing in on things I don’t have, or the situations I’m currently in. I heavily criticize myself and am overly empathetic to a fault.
All that being said…I am much better about it today than I was a few years ago. Today a coworker was ending her last day with us, and as I gave her a big hug she shared her first memory she had of me- it was funny, but in a strange way. The first impression I gave this person when they met me was that I was frantically worrying about EVERYTHING and hugely overdramatic. Sometimes I tend to be a little dramatic and silly when I’m upset because it doesn’t make me feel as bad? I guess that’s a coping mechanism I have. This conversation got me thinking about how others perceive me and I know most of my friends (and my husband) would say I worry too much. If there’s anything I learned in my class it was to live in day tight compartments- don’t worry about the past or the future, and if you keep yourself busy you won’t have time to worry.
One of my goals this summer is let go of worry- it doesn’t solve anything, it just makes me feel worse! When other people meet me for the first time I want them to think ” Wow…Jess is really positive and happy!” not ” Oh god, she is FREAKING OUT”. I know it’ll be hard, but I really believe it’ll be worth it.
Do you worry too much? I’d love to hear how you deal with stress and worry.